Dee

I blog about peace as i went to Citraland (a coy open air area where there are foods and beverages stall down the alley, in Citra Land. i went there with an old friend who dropped by Surabaya for only a day, she is visiting the east to attend to a seminar, dentists seminar i think, and then she went upstraight to malang to visit her boy friend, so she was here for her early flight today (sunday) I brought her to Citraland where i thought a big city like Jakarta don’t really have the kind

we ordered tahu tek ( food where Jakarta don’t have a delicious one :P) and we talked about current issues and something elses, when i caught my sight to   a baby sleeping on her mother’s shoulder (she had her ear pierced so it’s definetely a baby girl!) she slept in such a peace in the middle of noisy place, unlike other babies who wouldn’t be able to sleep that quiet and so calm, so full of peace, then my thoughts flight to somewhere else, i begin to think, how nice it is to be a baby, we don’t have anything to worry about, no responsibility carried upon our shoulders, none has to be done, none has to be thought, just sat or lie or crawl to let people admire us, to be looked full of love, and enjoy everything that is given.

it doesn’t stop there, my flight flew to how nice it is when the world is full of peace, smile, love, no crying, no staring, no punching, no wars, no strategy or anything, everything is to be shared, no harmfull effects,….too bad the world has been poluted by evilness, this regarding to what i had posted before, recalling to the old past times when love is believed to be only a time, full of trusts and never forget each other..

how time fly so fast, things changed rapidly, the world has come to this state, what will it turn to say for another 5 or 10 years,….worse?or will it turn to be better? or will it remain like this forever?

well i hope it remains like this, it cant turn back to the old times, but this is worse enough, let’s make it worse instead of worst.

we know that people are created to have wish, to dream whatever they want, well i have some too lets share 10 out of so many with you

1. i wish i have 10 million rupiah so i can bring aria to go to singapore for a week
2. i wish my renov house is finished and i can decor my room gladly
3. i wish i have more than 24 hours time in a day to finish all my tasks…like thesis? and some writings that i been dying to write for months already
4. i wish i have 2 spare computer to be built as a server.
5. i wish i could buy a camera (digital camera with 5.0 mega pixel minimum 4x optical zoom)
6. a laptop to complete my techno lifestyle BUAHAHaha
7. i wish i have the money to buy a condominium and stay there (in jakarta so my mum could live there)
8. i wish i can spread the happiness seed so that people could smile instead of crying.
9. i wish i have a wand to magic my and people’s life
10. i wish i have 10 more wishes (greedy ol’ girl)

I got this from some people i dont really know, so i posted them….these are lyrics of songs,…some songs that maybe is not so known and famous but nice to enjoy

Will You Love Me Tomorrow
Originally performed by The Shirelles
A # 1 hit from 1960
Remade in 1968 by The Four Seasons, it hit # 24
Remade again in 1978 by Dave Mason, it hit # 39
Tonight you’re mine, completely.
You give your love, so sweetly.
Tonight, the light, of love is in your eyes.
But will you love me, tomorrow?

Is this a lasting treasure?
Or just a moments pleasure?
Can I believe the magic of your smile?
Will you still love me tomorrow?

Tonight with words unspoken.
You say that I’m the only one.
But will my heart be broken?
When the night meets the morning sun?

I’d like to know that your love,
Is a love I can be sure of.
So tell me now and I won’t ask again,
Will you still love me tomorrow?

So tell me now and I won’t ask again,
Will you still love me tomorrow?

Hold Me Thrill Me Kiss Me
As performed by Gloria Estefan in 1994
Originally performed by Karen Chandler in 1953 (a #5 hit)
Best known version done by Mel Carter hit #8 in 1965
Hold me, hold me,
Never let me go until you’ve told me, told me,
What I want to know and then just hold me, hold me
Make me tell you I’m in love with you.

http://www.classgirlsrocknroll.com/sounds/sounds.html

Thrill me, thrill me,
Walk me down the lane where shadows will be, will be
Hiding lovers just the same as we’ll be, we’ll be,
When you make me tell you I love you.

They told me be sensible with your new love,
Don’t be fooled thinking this is the last you’ll find.
But they never stood in the dark with you love,
When you take me in your arms and drive me slowly out of my mind

Kiss me, kiss me,
And when you do I’ll know you that you will miss me, miss me,
If we ever say adieu so kiss me, kiss me,
Make me tell you I’m in love with you.

Artist: Mel Carter
Song Lyrics: Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me
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Hold me, hold me
Never let me go until youve told me, told me
What I want to know and then just hold me, hold me
Make me tell you Im in love with you

Thrill me , thrill me
Walk me down the lane where shadows will be  will be
Hiding lovers just the same as well be, well be
When you make me tell you I love you

They told me Be sensible with your new love
Dont be fooled, thinking this is the last youll find
But they never stood in the dark with you, love
When you take me in your arms and drive me slowly out of my
mind

Kiss me , kiss me
And when you do, Ill know that you will miss me , miss me
If we ever say Adieu, so kiss me, kiss me
Make me tell you Im in love with you

kiss me,  kiss me
When you do, Ill know that you will miss me , miss me
If we ever say Adieu so kiss me, kiss me
Make me tell you Im in love with you

Strangers in The Night

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Barry Manilow
Strangers in the night exchanging glances
Wond’ring in the night
What were the chances we’d be sharing love
Before the night was through.
Something in your eyes was so inviting,
Something in you smile was so exciting,
Something in my heart,
Told me I must have you.
Strangers in the night, two lonely people
We were strangers in the night
Up to the moment
When we said our first hello.
Little did we know
Love was just a glance away,
A warm embracing dance away and
Ever since that night we’ve been together.
Lovers at first sight, in love forever.
It turned out so right,
For strangers in the night.
Love was just a glance away,
A warm embracing dance away and
Ever since that night we’ve been together.
Lovers at first sight, in love forever.
It turned out so right,
For strangers in the night.
For strangers in the night
For strangers in the night

http://www.patriciawelch.com/recordings.htm

A friend of mine wrote this, i was so surprised to read a person like him to write something like this maybe when he is in love, that is what he felt it’s just so beautiful, im so touched, and indeed deep inside my heart i right all his saying…Love is like what it is….Pain but yet so wonderfull what a disease!

In Liong

Pernahkah kamu merasakan bahwa kamu mencintai seseorang
meski kamu tahu ia tak sendiri lagi dan meski kamu tahu
cintamu mungkin tak berbalas, tapi kamu tetap
mencintainya? Pernahkah kamu merasakan bahwa kamu sanggup
melakukan apa saja demi seseorang yang kamu cintai meski
kamu tahu ia takkan pernah peduli ataupun ia peduli dan
mengerti, tapi ia tetap pergi? Pernahkah kamu merasakan
hebatnya cinta, tersenyum kala terluka, menangis kala
bahagia, bersedih kala bersama, tertawa kala berpisah, Aku
pernah ……… Aku pernah tersenyum meski kuterluka,
karena kuyakin Tuhan tak menjadikannya untukku .. Aku
pernah menangis kala bahagia, karena kutakut kebahagiaan
cinta ini akan sirna begitu saja .. Aku pernah bersedih
kala bersamanya, karena kutakut aku kan kehilangan dia
suatu saat nanti, dan…… Aku juga pernah tertawa saat
berpisah dengannya, karena sekali lagi, cinta tak harus
memiliki, dan Tuhan pasti telah menyiapkan cinta yang lain
untukku .. Aku tetap bisa mencintainya, meski ia tak dapat
kurengkuh dalam pelukanku, karena memang cinta ada dalam
jiwa, bukan raga …

Here are some Quotes or Poems, or Reffrands from Song Lyrics, or etc, i chose some among a lot….Enjoy

That’s when the world feels small beneath your feetIt’s when the stars above you are only just out of reachWhen you feel you’re alive for the very first timeAnd there’s ac that you can’t rise aboveThat’s when you know that you’re in love
ThAT’s WhEN yOu KNow ~ GaRetH GatES

A four letter wordby Diogo reis
to some, love is just a four letter wordto others, it is the strongest thing they have ever heardwhy do some people think that magical word is so strong?because, to them, it is like a everlasting songthe music consists of alot of lovely voicesbecause, when your in love, you have alot of great choicesto people who think love is just a hoaxyour brain must be filled with too many jokesbecause, love is not something to fool around withfor, your life is probably just one big mythlater in life you will beg and pleadfor someone with love to do you a great deedby providing you with food and shelter and anything you needthen you will move on to finally suceed.

Here are times in life…When the person you will love,For the rest of your  life.Walks into your life. Sometimes, just sometimes…You hurt that person,You push them away.Not meaning to,But you do. Because you do this…You lose that person,They walk away. At times…You are afraid,To go on, after this.But what choice do you have? All you can do…Is hope that one day,
If that person really was the one.You will meet again. And if, just by chance…You get that second chance,Remember the past.Learn from your mistakes,And never let them happen again. And by doing this…You will find out,That a lifetime of happiness awaits.

Bagaimana caranya untuk
Agar kau mengerti
Bahwa aku rindu…
Bagaimana caranya untuk
Agar kau mengerti
Bahwa aku cinta…

Masihkah mungkin
Hatimu berkenan
Menerima hatiku untukmu

Cintaku sedalam samudra
Setinggi langit di angkasa
Kepadamu…

Cintaku sebesar dunia
Seluas jagad raya ini
Kepadamu, kepadamu…

Bagaimana caranya untuk kau mengerti
Bahwa aku mencintaimu selamanya?
Bagaimana caranya untuk kau mengerti
Bahwa aku merindukanmu selamanya?

Sang by: Ahmad Dhani & Agnes

I used to think
that love was only real in the movies
and that I enjoyed being alone
I used to think
that I was too independent
that I didn’t need anyone
because I was so strong
But after meeting you
I realize that my attitude
towards love
was merely a cover-up of
my disappointment with relationships
I put on a strong, noncaring front
so no one would know how I felt
But after meeting you
I could no longer pretend
My feelings became transparent
and now I want to tell the world
something I always knew but was
afraid to admit
that love is the most important
feeling one can have
and I want to thank you for
causing me to be honest
with myself and others

Thank you for being in my life…
Thank you for stayin by my side always….
Thank you for holding me in and never letting me go…
Thank you for everything….

For better for worse I will keep you in my mind always…..

These words had been posted in My Profile "About Me" field, people had been questioning me regarding these saying, like what is that all about?" "Do you really feel that way?" "It must be about him, isn’t it" and so on….well actually i don feel othered questioned like that o.O sometimes i just thought, noody really know me thoroughly anyway, nobody could really know the meaning of my deeds, saying and all.  Well those are me actually, it might appear to some of you who had known me for years that i dont show like that, but indeed thats me, sometimes we just need a cover up to be more independent, i need a mask to show that i am okay with all that happens in my life, god or bad, i want people to know that i am strong, but arent we all? arent we made to be strong? thats why God give us a lot of organ in our body, to keep us strong when actually we are not, and to keep us warm when it chills, to keep us think fresh when we are so not fresh, to make us brilliant and smart when actually we might not know a thing bout it.

for me, pretend is a good thing, just dont lie, i dont like being lied and lie (well sometimes we are forced to, white lies is allowed allright ~^-^~

Doesnt mean that i dont feel loved….i was moved,…and a little bit thinking hehehee

anyway i cant sleep so i watched tv and found there is Friends (Movie show,…american movie show? featuring Jennifer Aniston, Courtney Cox, Matthew Perry and etc?)

well they played an episode, i cant remember exactly what is the season and the episode, but it was when Monica was trying to convince Erica to give them her baby (adoption) so the scene was, when Erica read the wrong file which states that Chandler is a Doctor instead of Advertiser, and Monica was a Reverand instead of a Cheaf!!! they played the role, but Chandler then felt that it is all wrong to lie about who they are to Erica as she is about to give away her own Child….so they decided to tell Erica the truth, and as we had guess off course she freaked out…..she refused to give them the baby but actually Erica liked them, and decided to give the baby, but it blows out, and Chandler was trying to convince her how good Monica is….i still can remember some of the lines, but its only about….not the exact lines though…

"we want the babies for a long time and so badly…Im in advertising, and my wife is a Chef, she is a devoted, caring, and understanding woman, and dont tell Monica but the woman is always right, and i love her so much, and it kills me knowing that i cant give her a baby, i will learn how to be a good dad, but my wfe is already there, she is a mum, without a baby…."

that’s about it…not exact lines but its the whole point of my post, when a man loves a woman, he said wonderfull things about her, he might not say it right to her, but he knows deep in his heart how wonderfull and excellent the woman is, cause he is the only one who knows exactly how he felt for her, and he is the only one can unite to her,….i was touched by his words, and in fact, Chandler indeed is my fave character, he might looked dumb and silly with all his jokes, but when he wanted to tell the truth, express his feelings, he himself had his own way and knows what to do to let it out…he might not say all good things to everybody, but when there is the need to, he will…

well once again, its not that i dont feel love, i was just touched by how a man could loves a woman like that from this life (not even half of life yet) i learnt so many things about love, i watched this movie (another film, but hey they are created for us to watch to express something right?)well i watched this drama "War and Beauty" brought up to illustrate how the maidens in past of Man Dynasty lived (or should i say Ming Dynasty) well it illustrates the war and the beauties the maidens and they shared the same man, whom a royal king, and they had a queen to look upon. competitions among them, relatives or just best friends, will compete not only by their beauty but also by plans to kill if they really have to, not only for them but also their relatives, little ones or older ones, they will haunt them and do everything to get rid their competitiors, and what the king did? he closed his eyes but enjoy the body and the beauty of his maidens, one by one, as they are not companied by the kind everyday but took turns, so they fall for somebody else, this movie taught me how pure and beautifull but also hurt when a person fall in love in the past days, but things chaged, we fall in love many many times before decided which we will decide to live with ever after, but not for them, they fall once, and will only once.

Perhaps those are only movies, but for me love indeed is something precious,….too bad love isnt as pure as it used to be, have i fallen in love? i cant tell…..i care for someone right now, and i just hope my care for him is a form of a pure love the past always seen, and i hope the way i cared for him will be seen by him, from his own feelings, i neednt need to say anything, but he will understand, i neednt need to explain but he will trust for everything i did or do or done, will not meant to hurt him, for he is the one that lived in my minds, for he is the first person i would think whenever it is good or bad.

i am hunger and thirst for that kind of feeling.  a feeling that i neednt need to do anything, but it will show and express itself…will there be?i hope so….things might changed, but love won’t as its invisible,immortality….

its been a wekk already since my last visit to Jakarta.  I went there last week, exactly on sunday at 8 30 am flight, Adam Air, and then a friend meet me there, we went to Mangga Dua, Chandra Glodok, and then off to Plaza Indonesia, at around 7 pm we reached Tanjung Duren, heading off to Vihara Eka Yana to greet my past Grandma (her ash) and after that we went to meet a friend who lived nearby, around 7 30 or was it already 8 we headed off to my home and then he dropped in for a while just to say hello to the family and he too off, there he goes, and we are apart again.

I missed him terribly, he is a nice closest friend to me, i trusted him more than anyone, i cared for him more than anything, though he might not be that nice (for everyone else to see) but he is the best thing ever happened in my life

that 1 day trip vanished my passion to see him, i just hope that we will see each other soon. only a day but he could calm me off, just seeing him laguhing or listening to whatever comment he like to say (oh he is damn full of comment aren’t you dad? ^-^

anyway, i was so happy that 1 day trip could make him at least relax for 1/2 day from his work, eat more than he usually did, i was so sad and my heart was so hurt when i saw how thinner you had became….he looked so happy and at last i took him to ‘Sedap Wangi’ where i always eat with my family when we visit Jakarta, Duck and Pork hehehheheeh, its damn delicious, no other can compete them in Indonesia, not even the famous, darn expensive Duck King in TP or GM Surabaya.

After that we head off to Plaza Indonesia, he wore a troussers instead of his usual short bermuda, which in fact its the exact same with the one my bro has so we went off there and i was so hypnotized by the shopping spirit i had heueheueheuheue, he said i could finish the credit card limit as long as i paid it, but luckily things were so variety that i cant choose and my high heels sandals were hurting me so bad that i cant really walk that fast, so we went around, visit the ‘Must’ Kinokuniya and we went to Apple center and was so fascinated by the white glare from the shop’s decoration so Classy but yet so Expensive, Darn Expensive actually but it is a good quality, so what else can we say unless admiring it especially him, he was looking intensely at the dreaming Ipod he wanted to buy oh please DAD wasting so much money, luckily this guy still using his own common sense so we went off around and we found this brand new sandal merk, which was said that brought from Brazil, it looks like the regular cheap slipper unless that this is painted much more better and more fashionable, so we were looking for his mum’s gift, but we cant find the best slipper there, and so we went around more, and then we found the Famous Amos, so we decided to buy that for his parents instead of goodies nice things to do uh? well that’s him always funny and thoughtfull in his own way….times clicking even faster than i thought, its 5 o clock! but yet i still managed to pass Rotelli and bought a pair of beautiful sandal, then we went off to the Supermarket to get some stuff i might need for the night, then we went off from Plaza Indonesia

Frankly, i still have so many places to visit, never been to Dharmawangsa Square, and i would really want to visit citos (Cilandak Town Square) but too bad, he insist on going back, because he felt so uncomfortable not going to the factory for the whole day long….my GOD!n its sunday for Goodness Sake!!

So here it ends, I went back the next noon, monday 12 15 pm flight, Another Adam Air flight, we didnt even managed to say goodbye,….perhaps this is the craziest thing i ever did but its worth it so bad at least seeing him 1 day after not seeing him 3 months it paid off

Today I realized there are so many things in my life that i have but never really got to see it.
I have so many beautifull and caring friends, good career, loving family (not that loving, but comparing to those broken hommies,…i consider myself lucky enough <>) good education, nice home, and etc etc etc…

Anyway, i just wanted to share what kind of regular activities i always lead in weekdays
Another Boring dull life, days past so fast that i just felt i shut down my eyes on sunday and when i opened it, its friday already….

So i woke up lazily in the morning (i am so not a morning person) and then i went to my bro’s room to poke him (i love doin this, its like a breakfast in the morning) but hey, he is awoke, and in fact he is dressed up and ready to go…..he just got himself a job as a manager in the restaurant way to go kiddo!
so i went to see my mum, i couldn’t find her, i suppose she is at the back watching the renovations,…oh yeah, my house is under consturction again, my friends oftenly sighed and not least that didnt shout “Di, your house is under consturction again?” its been always under construction….its a long story, perhaps i will make a blog out of it anyway and so shortly, i went to take a bath…..and went for a slight makeup (i never really use make up daily, i cant stand the powder too much in my face, and i just dont enjoy when my lips are so shiny juicy) hairdo…thats the most important thing for me, i wont leave the house if my hairdo arent good enough but it usually always good enough hehehehehe, so i went to the office, just another boring activity, got nothing to do, finished everything just before lunch, so i went to petra where my friends (not really close friends, in fact i dont have anyone that could be categorized as a close one, relative :)) helping the girls selling drinks, met my some other friends too, they were surprised meeting me there as i dont belong to that uni anyway hehehe so wha the hell perhaps they thought, in no time, its 3 o clock! so i went to the parking lot (no university has a derserve parking lot in Surabaya) its always either so hot or the roads are sucks) so i went to the institute where i always teach my little cute students (not all of them are cute for hard notice, sometimes they are so irritating too, but least are like that)
where am i going to after that? probably just a slight window shopping or having dinner out with my mum (as she is still in sby now) or either i will go to CL and dine with Bing (not anymore, as my mum still here but most frequently we do :))) or not to dine, as i am fat enough anyway
so thats my colourfull but boring, so which category will it fit anyway? depends on which corner you see it i suppose ~ ^-^ ~