Something People had questioning me about
I used to think
that love was only real in the movies
and that I enjoyed being alone
I used to think
that I was too independent
that I didn’t need anyone
because I was so strong
But after meeting you
I realize that my attitude
towards love
was merely a cover-up of
my disappointment with relationships
I put on a strong, noncaring front
so no one would know how I felt
But after meeting you
I could no longer pretend
My feelings became transparent
and now I want to tell the world
something I always knew but was
afraid to admit
that love is the most important
feeling one can have
and I want to thank you for
causing me to be honest
with myself and others
Thank you for being in my life…
Thank you for stayin by my side always….
Thank you for holding me in and never letting me go…
Thank you for everything….
For better for worse I will keep you in my mind always…..
These words had been posted in My Profile "About Me" field, people had been questioning me regarding these saying, like what is that all about?" "Do you really feel that way?" "It must be about him, isn’t it" and so on….well actually i don feel othered questioned like that o.O sometimes i just thought, noody really know me thoroughly anyway, nobody could really know the meaning of my deeds, saying and all. Well those are me actually, it might appear to some of you who had known me for years that i dont show like that, but indeed thats me, sometimes we just need a cover up to be more independent, i need a mask to show that i am okay with all that happens in my life, god or bad, i want people to know that i am strong, but arent we all? arent we made to be strong? thats why God give us a lot of organ in our body, to keep us strong when actually we are not, and to keep us warm when it chills, to keep us think fresh when we are so not fresh, to make us brilliant and smart when actually we might not know a thing bout it.
for me, pretend is a good thing, just dont lie, i dont like being lied and lie (well sometimes we are forced to, white lies is allowed allright ~^-^~
